Changes

Whenever one of the lotteries gets up pretty high, I begin fantasizing about how much better my life would be with essentially unlimited funds, and when it is won by someone else it is always a letdown as I put the fantasies away for a bit and return to the real world where I can't solve any of my problems because I am poor, it's depressing. Whoever said money can't buy happiness apparently never was forced to live without it.

So on Monday Whitney and Karl came over to play Magic, we got pizza and soda and a good time was had by all, later that evening as I was getting ready for bed I realized that without even thinking about it I had consumed a full two liter of Pepsi pretty much by myself. This wasn't the first time I've done that of course, you can't play D and D for years without having binged on soda once in a while, but this time seemed different, I realized that I am 32, terribly overweight, and was actually kind of, I guess the right word is ashamed, of what I had done for possibly the first time in my life.

So I am swearing off soda, I know it isn't going to magically improve my health, but I have to start somewhere and while I do enjoy the sugary carbonated beverages, I don't feel like my life is significantly lessened without their presence, as it would be if I had to give up dairy or something.
Exceptions will be made for high quality or home brewed ginger ale, or, on special occasions like birthdays, a nice draft root beer or something.

So far so good, I made it through a whole shift at work without any, and while that doesn't seem like much, it is free for me there, one of the perks of the job I guess, but we also have a water cooler in most of the stands, so it isn't like I don't have options.

Healthy at any size is a goddamned deluded idea, no in fact, there are a great many sizes that are not healthy, just because I can do a lot of stuff doesn't mean it wouldn't be easier and less painful if I were fifty pounds lighter, which would still put me pretty heavily overweight if we go by the traditional body mass index, also as depressed as I get sometimes, I really don't want to die on any terms other than my own, this includes of a heart attack, so I'll start down the road of dieting and exercise, we'll begin with cutting soda and restricting portions, then move on to other stuff.

Something to look forward to I guess.