Insomnia woes

I get bouts of insomnia on irregular, but not uncommon, occasions, I am in the midst of one right now, it is nearly 4 AM as I write this and I am pretty sure I'll be able to fall asleep now, but we'll see. I've already had one entirely sleepless night this week, and I have to work in the morning, as I did when I had my sleepless night earlier.

It doesn't really seem to follow a pattern, one upon a time I figured it was stress, and I am sure that was part of it as I didn't sleep a ton when running the store, but it's hit me during periods of unemployment, employment, bouts of depression, and otherwise, it also doesn't seem to correspond with physical activity that much, though I do have a marginally easier time getting to sleep after a day at work, it isn't reliably the solution.

I am not suffering exactly, I usually spend the time writing, watching TV, or playing video games, and I don't feel the time is wasted when I do that. I also function reasonably well the next day, though I do tend to forget details easier and I get a bit loopy after a while. It helps that I generally don't want to be asleep and view it as, not a waste of time exactly, but low on my list of fun things to do.
Zena sleeps for recreation, so that can sometimes be rough, I know when I don't sleep well she doesn't rest as easy either.

Writing is one of the things I try to do when insomniac, but it rarely turns out well, I have a folder full of story beginnings, but looking at them when I am rested reveals that they are really bad, and I am not just saying that because that is what all writers say about their work, these are legitimately terrible, with awful characters and incomprehensible plots, they aren't gibberish, they are just not good.

That's the thing with insomnia, just because you can't sleep, doesn't mean you are tired, or that your body and mind don't feel it, the brain keeps spinning but it really isn't designed to go without sleep for a long time and functioning properly becomes pretty hard. That has been my experience at any rate.

As problems go it really isn't that high, having to spend a week or two every few months not sleeping properly is not the worst thing that could happen to me, but it's what is on my mind today, so now you all get to know about it.

Off to bed for me, if all goes well I'll get almost three hours of sleep before I have to leave for work, looking forward to my nap later, although napping during the day also effects my ability to sleep at night.