Blogging About Blogging Instead of Facebook

I'm a mouthy, contentious, emotional sort of person. Arguing with belligerent strangers online doesn't bother me too much, but if I start arguing with a friend, particularly if we get into "deeply-held beliefs" territory, it just fucks my brain up and gives me a panic attack. I have OCD, more or less, and once I'm triggered, my vision narrows, my head starts to hurt, and all I can think about for hours on end is the argument. Over and over again. New words. New tangents. The people I argue with in my head know all my secrets - their retorts become razor sharp indictments of my character. They know exactly how to hurt me, and no matter what I say, it's clear that I've already lost. I'm scum. I always was.

Of course, if I was able to take a step back, I would realize that I've cast the shadow of my insecurity over a real person and completely lost sight of what's rational and relevant.

I'm someone who likes to vent my spleen. And I guess, if I'm going to do that in an online format, I should do it here. Somewhere that's not social media. So I'm going to try that for awhile. My friend Logan offered me this space, and while I realize I could easily start my own blogspot, I think I like this better. The world has enough blogs. If the Foul Quail Hall is gonna be filled with rants, I want to add mine to the mix. Thanks for having me, Logan.