What I did today.

I went to Whitney's birthday party this evening, that was nice but the place was too crowded and noisy for me to be comfortable, it took a lot out of me, especially on top of having to be sociable earlier in the day and then braving the holiday shoppers at the grocery store.

Also I think I may have caught a cold from being out in the weather, but that could be my hypochondria speaking.

I've talked a bit before about my anxiety, crowds just increasingly bother me, the noise is very hard for me to deal with and the fact that everyone in the crowd doesn't do things exactly like I want them to infuriates me, by this I mean if I am trying to walk somewhere and things don't arrange themselves so everyone gets out of my way promptly, I become very frustrated. I can deal, obviously since I still do go out occasionally, but it takes a lot of effort an I usually have to sit quietly in the dark at home for a while after, which is my preferred thing to do anyway so that isn't incredibly inconvenient or anything.

I've been able to do work without much trouble, as there is a counter between me and the crowd, and in my stand I can actually tell everyone there to do things the way I want them done, which helps a bit, but even then I sometimes need to step into the back an take a couple deep breaths before jumping back in.

It is perhaps unfortunate that all my job skills are pretty much geared towards dealing with the public, and more and more, doing so in a busy environment, it's gonna be hard to get out of that unless I can randomly become a best selling author or win the lottery or something, a man can dream I guess.

Off to bed with me, hopefully to wake up without a cold, night everyone.