Zug Zug

The summer is finally ending, and with fall comes sports season, don't worry this isn't another about football, though I am looking forward to the first Seahawks game starting in about seven hours, no this is about work.

I only work when there are events, and the summer has been pretty slow, but the next couple weeks will see me working almost full time hours for a while, and October is looking to be brutal with both the Blazers and Winterhawks starting up, as well as a bunch of other stuff happening. This will mark the first time since I closed my store that I will have to get up every day and report to work for more than a week or so at a time, and honestly, at the shop there were many days where I could have just said screw it, opened a few hours later, and no one would have noticed or cared except possibly this one dude who seemed to think I existed for his sole benefit. Which, in a sense, I guess I kinda did on some days.

Anyhow, I am a little nervous, I know I am capable of working full time, obviously, I've done it before and will do it again, unless I win the lottery in the next couple days, but the part of me that has gotten used to doing things on my own schedule is preemptively resenting it. That part of me wants to spend all day playing video games, then write a blog post at 3AM before going to bed and sleeping until 11. That part of me is kind of a tool and I am not proud that it exists.

I even like my job! I don't really like the pay that much, but the work is satisfying to me, for now anyway, I like my bosses and it appears that they like me , and I feel like I might even be able to move up to a new position sooner rather than later there, it is sort of a unique feeling I can't recall having when I worked for "The man" previously.

It wasn't so long ago though that the lazy part of me would win out over this anyway, it is one aspect of my own personal development that I am actually proud of, I know many would say going to work is not really that much of an accomplishment, but we each place our priorities differently, and for me doing things even when they are inconvenient is progress that I find satisfying.